Friday, January 29, 2016

Toothless

So here's a personal interlude. 


Nine years ago I thought I was a hotshot snowboarder, went off a set of rollers, knocked myself unconscious, scraped my face and knocked out a tooth. If you've read KISSING FROGS then you're familiar with that story and the incident with the flipper which yes, was in fact taken from my real life. How could I NOT tell people about the time my fake tooth fell out in a club and my friend dove into the crowd to find it? I had a responsibility to share that with everyone.

Next week I head out to Colorado to visit one of my favorite people in the whole wide world. I didn't get to visit her last winter (these pictures are from two years ago) but I promised I would this year and thank goodness I'm going because she's moving back east in a few months, though sadly not to Boston. Waaaah! Anywho, I have not been snowboarding yet this winter and the other night I started to have major anxiety about it. I have a generous amount of fear when it comes to both surfing and snowboarding and have a tattoo to remind myself to be present, breathe and be brave. But once you hurt yourself, even if you don't remember the accident itself, which in my case I don't even remember the moments leading up to it, your body remembers the aftermath of the trauma. So while I'm feeling anxious I am trying to remind myself that I don't have to go down Black Diamonds and I can go slow if I start to feel scared and that overall just enjoy it. And thankfully my surf/snow buddy knows my level of fear and is accommodating. If anything, she knows how much I'm capable of and reminds me of that when I shrink away. Last time she convinced me I could handle black diamonds and from the photo below you can see that I finally came to realize that if I put the fear aside, not ignoring it but understanding that it was okay to have but that it shouldn't stop me, I could actually do it and it wasn't actually that scary. I guess what I'm getting at is that you should never let fear keep you from doing what you love. Because being out on the water watching waves roll in or standing at the top of a mountain looking out over the horizon is an amazing thing to behold. So understand that fear, respect it, then conquer it.


xo
~Stephanie
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  1. Wow, I can't believe it's been 9 years! You're a rock star!

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  2. Wow, I can't believe it's been 9 years! You're a rock star!

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